Playing Catch-Up

Having to play catch-up on things is not fun. I do not care who you are, nobody likes falling behind the curve.

I have struggled with sticking to things a couple of times in my life. My senior year in college for instance, now granted it was as Covid was starting to really skyrocket and we went into a global pandemic, but any excuse is just that, an excuse. I had too much on my plate, I thought I was doing well trying to manage it all, working 4 jobs, being a full time student, trying to have a social life, planning for a career after graduation; it eventually caught up with me. My schedule started interfering with others and causing a disgruntled group that just fought against every choice I made. They started to dread being home in my apartment. I started to have sleepless nights. I started to slack off on assignments and get extensions because my professors knew I was good at my work. But it just kept slipping me up, I started to struggle more and more and withdraw within myself as my world crumbled around me. And then having to go home and be isolated with my family and try to keep up with everything because the World got shut down but mine did not, it just was overall not a fun time.

I think that is probably the worst time I slipped up and fell behind and had to play catch-up. I did it though. I caught up, I graduated, I held my jobs for a while until I decided to find my career.

Now, I am here. At my career. In my apartment. Still slipping up occasionally. It happens. You have a bad day, you have a bad week, maybe you even have a bad month. But you need to think of every new day as an opportunity to do better. You need to find a way to learn from your mistakes. Maybe you need to not play catch up and just pick up as if no time had passed. It would probably be less stressful that way.