Protagonist, Antagonist, or Sidekick?

Everyone has a story.

What role they play in their story is not going to be the same role they play in the story of others they come in contact with.

A protagonist is defined as a main character who usually advocates for a specific cause or idea and is generally good in nature.

An antagonist is defined as someone who opposes or stands against the protagonist of a story.

A sidekick is defined as a close companion or associate of another who has more authority than them.

When you are a protagonist in your own story; you probably do things such as help the less fortunate, take on leadership roles, or stand up against injustices to those you love.

When you're the antagonist in your own story; you probably do things such as self-sabotage your plans, put the minimal effort into tasks, spend your free time doing things that neither benefit others nor yourself.

When you feel like you are the side kick of your own story, you probably feel like the story isn't even your own. Which is how I often feel.

I often feel as though my efforts in life, are without prosper or as though they are only ever really for others rather than myself. The things I try to achieve for myself, they aren't fully of my own ambitions. I strive for things, that have been the normal throughout my upbringing because it is what is familiar and it is what I known. But is it what I actually desire? I feel guilty spending on myself, be it cash or time; but I will give my literal all into someone who has shown the most minimal of effort toward my existence. Even just a regular, reoccurring greeting that shows you have noticed I exist.

I do not feel as though I exist for my own being, for my own pleasure, for my own desire, for my own biding. I exist to get things done for others, as a secondary thought, as a helpful hand, as someone to blame.

I am part of the scene but as a background character, an individual in the ensemble.

I'm a sidekick at best.