Becoming a Streamer

 Creative outlets are numerous in our world.

It can be a struggle sometimes but if anyone were to try hard enough, they could pursue their passions and do things such as create music, create abstract art mosaics, review books and run a blog, be a social media influencer, design games, play games, et cetera et cetera. 

We very obviously have that blog thing under control, check.

We also dabble very lightly in social media and creating TikTok videos, double check.

We should definitely work on pursuing another creative outlet of ours, gaming, and make that powerful triad a thing. Right? Maybe?

In all serious though, trying to make an impact on the world can be very difficult and stressful. That's why rather than focusing on trying to turn ourselves into something big and productive like Charli D'amelio or Justin Beiber or Jeyden Wale, we find more contentment in just creating for our own amusement. 

And in the words of somebody brave, 'If I happen to make a few lonely hearts smile along the way, then all the better.'

Having an online community and friends to talk with and connect with is definitely not something odd in this day and age. I can remember the flipnote Hatena on the DSi and staying up all night chatting with friends across the country. I can remember the early days of running this blog with people across the globe and thinking we were the ish. I can only imagine what it is going to be like continuing to connect with people across the waves and pursuing interests such as gaming or singing or painting. We will continue to grow as a community and as individuals as we learn more about ourselves. 

In terms of Twitch and streaming, it is still very much something new to us. Trying to be something you don't personally feel like you are can be hard though, and all the love and support is very much needed as people try to grow and stretch out of the comfort zone.

Learning new software such as the layouts of the stream.

Learning new games and play-through methods.

Learning how to be more social and outspoken.

Those are all things we are going to need to work on if we want to get the most out of what we do.

We can only go as far as we desire and that desire is fueled by our happiness.  

Thanks for taking the time to read this pointless ramble from Rambo!

Feel free to start a conversation below! We would be enthralled to discuss our gaming interests or any strategies on going forward with our passions of blogging and streaming :) 

Changing Tides: Adjusting Your Relationships

Making connections with people is difficult at times.

Growing apart after those connections are made can be hard.

Growing fond of someone who doesn't share the same sentiments can be harder.

But what hurts the most, is knowing you made someone (or a group of someones) your everything for a period of time in your life and then finding out that you are nothing more than a background character in their story.

Are you even the main character in your own story?

So much of my life, I have dedicated to helping better others, helping others stay afloat. It didn't usually matter the cost/toll of my own expense.

I can name all of the peers whom I have considered friends throughout my life and I can't tell you how many of them do not bother to reach out to me. They don't bother to entertain any of my whims by doing something as simple as liking a status, sharing a photo, responding to a direct message.

But of late, my group has dropped off. They have moved on. Decided this wasn't what was best for them.

And it hurts.

It hurts knowing that I am not enough.

It hurts knowing that I have spent all of my time, my resources, my efforts, trying to help these people through their rocky terrain. Knowing that I have confided in them things that I don't even feel comfortable telling a therapist or family, and it has all gone in one ear and out the other.

I feel unheard. I feel abandoned. I feel unwanted. Undesired. Unnecessary. Inconvenient. Problematic. Secondary to all else.

Everyone has different priorities, different directives. But why can't we work toward our own stars together. Why can't everyone play more than one role and be a main character in their own story but also a support role in someone else's campaign?

I can not stress enough how much I still continue to care for these people in my life. How proud I am to be able to say I knew them when and have seen them grow into something they have fought countless draining hours for. 

But sometimes, I wish things didn't have to change. I wish we could all always want to continue with each other. To always spend those witching hours on calls with one another. To always fall asleep knowing they are watching because that's when we are safest. To know that all we have to do is send a quick message or have an unusual tune to have them come running to embrace us.

I will always have those memories and sometimes it hurts knowing what I have lost.

I've lost the shared pain. I've lost the shared crazies. I've lost the shared loneliness. 

And now I am left here in the dark by myself while you isolate yourself somewhere else and our shining light goes off into her new light.

Getting Back Into It

 Hello All. And welcome to the re-vamping of the Nightdweller Community. 

As I'm sure everyone has probably noticed, it has been some time since we last made any appearances. It has also been quite some time since the world has seen a 'normal' day.

Although in modern times, what is normal anymore?

As we begin to welcome more changes into our lives, we continue on, but we also face many difficulties which can cause us to falter in our choices.

Our paths have crossed many bridges and will track through mountains as we trudge through life every passing day. Look out for posts from new bloggers and new experiences from us all.

Things to look out for in the upcoming days and weeks; a new section of posts labeled 'streaming', new life stories being shared, new adventures being depicted, and so much more.

Thank you for always staying true to your desires and inspiring others through your actions.

See you soon Nightlings!